There are days when school can stress you out. Oh, who am I kidding. There are entire semesters when school can stress you out. But today was one of the ones that had me neurotic for about two hours.

There are also days when the wrong person says the wrong thing and you snap. As someone has said tonight, I never snap. I did tonight.

Then there are people who just make the day better.

dreamsofstars, pureyaoi, nystana, and frogmajick, you have made my bad day into something bearable. I love you guys.

*Uses the icon just for frogmajick*

I HAVE A COMPUTER! And I have lack of sleep because I need to finish Gulliver's Travels. Whoops?

So: Random coincidence of the day. When I went to the bus, I ended up talking to this girl from my Linguistics class. She's pretty recognizable because of her blue hair and I see her pretty much every time I go to the bus. I end up finding out that I'm not the only non-youngster in the class (25, wow, old) and that she's in the English Honors college, too. Now comes the funny part.

Once I get my computer up and running, I open my e-mail and let it download the gazillion e-mails that have been waiting for me. One of them is a friends request for Facebook from 'Jenny'. Huh, I think. Do I know a Jenny? I click on it and lo and behold, it's the girl I talked to on the bus. And even weirder? Her birthday? 6/19. For those of you who don't know? That's my birthday.

Cue the Twilight Zone theme.

Happy BIRTHDAY!!

*Sings off-tune to you*

So, I think I noticed this before, but it's only recently sunk in. The reason for my end-of-the-semester slump. I used to think it was because of finals and such, but I'm not in school this semester. I think I've just realized how much I depend on people. On everyone, really. It's why I always seem so clingy. Gets me into trouble a lot. Because even if I'm not attracted to a certain person, it seems that way because I'm all over them. Because I generally want hugs and I just like being in contact with someone.

And I do that emotionally, too. People I know I shouldn't invest my emotions in get them, anyway. Whether it's a friend, a non-friend, or a romantic interest. Look at George and Shell. I was practically in their laps yesterday. All because I was upset because everyone's leaving. There's something wrong with that. They may have put up with me, but I bet I didn't help them out much.

:Sigh: I hate life, sometimes.

So, I had my first good cry in a long time in the Cowden computer lab. I have never had anyone belittle me like Kris did. In all my years of teasing, no one got to me like he did. I've trusted all of my friends not to betray me like he did. I've trusted them not to hurt me, as only they could. And now, I'm not sure, except for three of them, who I can trust. Because I thought that Kris would always be there and wouldn't do something like that. And I'm wrong. And now I'm going to be paranoid every single time I'm around people that aren't Tina, Angela, or George.