Do I like her or do I hate her?
May. 31st, 2003 11:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zanLife is so confusing. At one point, I hate her. And now we seem to be fine. I don't know anymore. I want this all to go away. Maybe I won't even be there next semester. Take a whole year off. I want to. God knows, I want to.
I just want the conflict to end. At the end of the day, I want to curl up next to someone, even if it's not someone I'm attracted to, and relax. Just be myself. And I can't. Maybe.. Maybe I'll just stay out of it. I'll not go to school for a semester, again. Mention I need another break. I'll go to a Winter course. But I need time for me. To get my life in order. To not have to worry about what's next.
I just want the conflict to end. At the end of the day, I want to curl up next to someone, even if it's not someone I'm attracted to, and relax. Just be myself. And I can't. Maybe.. Maybe I'll just stay out of it. I'll not go to school for a semester, again. Mention I need another break. I'll go to a Winter course. But I need time for me. To get my life in order. To not have to worry about what's next.
