Leaving...

[zan]

So, I think I noticed this before, but it's only recently sunk in. The reason for my end-of-the-semester slump. I used to think it was because of finals and such, but I'm not in school this semester. I think I've just realized how much I depend on people. On everyone, really. It's why I always seem so clingy. Gets me into trouble a lot. Because even if I'm not attracted to a certain person, it seems that way because I'm all over them. Because I generally want hugs and I just like being in contact with someone.

And I do that emotionally, too. People I know I shouldn't invest my emotions in get them, anyway. Whether it's a friend, a non-friend, or a romantic interest. Look at George and Shell. I was practically in their laps yesterday. All because I was upset because everyone's leaving. There's something wrong with that. They may have put up with me, but I bet I didn't help them out much.

:Sigh: I hate life, sometimes.